My brother, Chip, died a year ago today – New Years Day, 2013. The past year seems to be a blur as I struggled to understand his untimely, and quite violent passing. No amount of pondering, introspection, psychology or even spiritual understanding could ever explain to me what happened in those moments before he left this world. I think I have aged this year. Grief affected my health and brain. People always say that the anniversary is tough – especially when it comes at a holiday. Well, I choose to handle this differently today.
I choose to remember the love of a brother. I choose to appreciate knowing he was always there for me, even when we didn’t see or talk much. I choose to take joy in the blessings of my life – thankful for my family and also the ones who have gone before. I entertain the thought that, just as we gather here on earth with loved ones for holiday meals, remembering those who are no longer with us, our loved ones in Heaven must be doing the same – gathering to feast on delicious food and treats – laughing together and remembering their loved ones still on earth.
So, across the threshold from this life, to that life, I raise a toast today to the ones I so miss, thankful that we will see each other again someday. Meanwhile, I have lots left to do in my life and large quantities of joy to partake of. Thanks to those of my friends who have remembered this day and prayed for me. Please know that I am okay, and very thankful for this new year – 2014. I am filled with love for my people and my God!
